Why I Can’t Just Sit Down and Sketch

ADHD, Anxiety, and the Artist’s Journey

Jun 30, 2025

Hey everyone!

Remember in my last post when I said I was taking a little break from writing everywhere so I could focus more on my art? Well… that did not happen. Because life threw a real curveball at me. Literally. 😫

I started drawing as therapy. But when life refuses to go your way, art takes a hit. At first, when I decided to step back, things were okay. But then my headphones broke. And let me tell you, dealing with customer support was a total hot mess. The staff (where I live) kept asking for an “implementation plan”, and it took ages before they finally gave us a time and date. Urgh.

Then came the worst part: the HEAT. I hate summer. Summers in Sweden used to be normal, but now they’re just brutal. And I don’t handle it well at all. I get more anxiety attacks, headaches, the whole deal.

So… my drawings? Barely happened. And I hate it. Because I’m thinking about drawing every damn second, but instead, I end up distracting myself with YouTube or something else instead of just sitting down to sketch.

Why is my ADHD so evil? 😭 I seriously hate having it most of the time.

But even with all this mess, I’ve still managed to draw a little. And when I do, it feels so damn good.

I’ve been wanting to do more sketching in my sketchbook lately. I tried using a ballpoint pen, but something about it just didn’t feel right. So I’ve gone back to graphite and colored pencils instead. I prefer sketching traditionally over digital. It just feels right, you know?

I keep trying to remind myself not to be so hard on myself when I’m not drawing. But still, why can’t I just sit down for 10 minutes and sketch something? Why is YouTube or Twitch more interesting, even when I have NOTHING to actually watch? I mean it. I’m not even looking for anything specific! It’s ridiculous.

Being easily distracted sucks. Plain and simple. 😑

But now that things are finally starting to get back to normal, minus the stupid heat, maybe I can start drawing more again. I’m slowly getting back into it. I’ve been sketching a bit while listening to podcasts before bed most nights.

I also told myself to start actually using the books I own for a change. I finally opened up the new animal drawing book I mentioned a few weeks ago, and I’m really liking it. Why haven’t I done this before? Oh yeah: DISTRACTIONS!

Small steps.