Hello!
The past few weeks have been awful… Had headache every day, not just my regular one of pain. But a new one as well. Got some kind of knife attack on my right side at random. Whole body just freezes when it happen. The pain was awful and I never knew when it would hit.
Did reach out to my nurses and they talked to a doctor, they think it might be Migraine. But I’m not sure.
Headache problem I had since early teen age years. I even did x-ray my head. But because they found nothing they never really told my what kind of headache I have.
But this time I won’t give up until they do! I’m tired of this 😫
Also I did get a time to meet the doctor on Nov 2nd. But two days before she called and said she was over booked…. Like what?!
Now I have to run with this headache everyday until I meet her on Nov 14th. Yeay…
Apple October Event
Apple did have an event at the end of October. And people thought they would not. But then again, I don’t understand why they had it. It was only 30min long 🤷
Anyhow it was at the middle of the night. My eyes was slowly closing in. Right before we changed into winter time, and it takes some time before I get used to it.
Anyhow they revealed the new M3 family. This time they even released Pro and Max chips! They usually comes later.
With that a new MacBook Pro in Space black. It looks amazing! Want one. And they finally got rid of the 13” MacBook Pro, that no one wants.
So only 14” and 16”.
And of course when I looking at this I want to buy one. But I bought my M1 Max 16” earlier this year. And I don’t need a new one.
Sure I did check the trade in price I would just get 10% back from what I paid. And the new ones if I spec it similar to one I have cost above 50k SEK. Nope.
These new chips is faster than M1 Or M2 for sure. Between 30% and 50% faster in some areas.
But is it worth it to upgrade ? No, not for me. I’m happy with the one I have!
And if I wanna upgrade I would probably buy the one before anyway, to get the cost down a little.
OH By the Way, they also released a new 24” iMAc. Same design at all but with the M3 chip. Been while since it got upgraded. Had M1 chips since 2021 or so.
Can’t Draw From Imagination
I cant draw from imagination! 😩
I can draw if I use a reference to build it on. But I can not start from scratch.
Okey let me explain. If I want to draw a character, I find a good reference to base it off. Getting down the pose and all, before adding the details I want to have. But it only works if the model does not have any clothes. If it has, I can not reimagine new clothes. Or ”see” the anatomy behind it.
For Inktober I wanted to try to draw what I have in my head. I wanted to focus on one type of character, a magpie. So I gather a lot of reference of one to have as a base.
But it did not work for me. I could not get those poses I wanted. And it just got me sad, so sad that I start crying over it.
You should not cry when you do something you love. That will just bring it from love to hate.
My Art Journey
My mind have been very busy lately. Busy Re-watching Agents of Shield. So because of that I have felt I had no time drawing….. I just hate when this kind of feeling happens. The feeling to not have time for something even if you have PLANTY of time for it?!
I can watch multiple episodes each night, eat candy or chips. End up with a bad headache because I never took any breaks between episode. Or just stop and draw something. Even better work on my next Youtube or Podcast episode.
This is something I struggle with for many years. And I guess it’s my ADHD side of me doing it. Not be able to stop myself from something that stole my brain.


(First Image) I have been watching Jujutsu Kaisen Season 2. They are way ahead of my Manga reading. But one episode a new character show up. And I fell in LOVE! His name is Choso. So of course I had to draw him, using his Blood Manipulation. (A similar power as one of mine OC)
Done in Affinity Photo
(Second Image) Hakai is a new Original Character of mine. Did show him of few weeks ago here. But I wanted to do a new illustration. A illustration to focus more of light. Making his active powers stand out compare to his body. Not sure if I was able to reach that goal. Feel like I forgot how to do just that.
Done in Clip Studio Paint
I’m releasing Bi-weekly videos once again on my Youtube Channel.
One recent one is this video about my Inktober Journey this year. Maybe wanna check it out? 😁
Having a good Night/Morning Routine
Having a good morning/night routine is the key for better health. I learned that the HARD way.
Around 7th grade I started to go to bed pretty late. Even on school nights. That got worse with age.
I could go to bed 2h before I should get ready for school. Those days with no school I slept to 2pm.
This is not a good life. My doctor even told me this and I did not listen.
During high school things got worse. Because my school was the edge on the other side of the city and not even in my hometown either. I needed take one buss to the city. Another to the school.
Because I went to bed around 4am and up again at 7-9 (depending when I started). I literally fell in sleep during classes. But I do blame the class for that. If its just boring class where you just sit there and listen. Of course I will fall in sleep! 😑 Who doesn’t?
But another time I got to school, they said I did not have any classes. I rushed back to the buss and I passed out. I didn’t eat breakfast either that morning.
But later on my last year of high school. My body started to shut down. I got sick on stuff I don’t usually get sick off. And just felt awful.
That was my wake up call, I cant stay up this late and go to school day after etc. And I did.
Now I go to bed at the same time every day, and I go up same time every day.
You should really take care of your body! If it says NO, its a NO.
What I currently reading?
Started to read the FIRST The Witcher book. I started with the Novel before 🤣 Not that I really complain because that book was good too! And this one is great as well.
Also been little lazy to read Manga. But I’m starting to get into it once again. And reached Volume 4 of Jujutsu Kaisen 😁.