Hello Everyone!
This weeks newsletter is a little different. Some very bad shit happen just before I was about to write a new newsletter.
And I just want to write about my experience with the psychiatry clinic.
More people need to know.
I got my diagnosis back in later 2014.
In 2017 my house doctor sent a referral to the psychiatry clinic after she wrote a medical certificate for payment stuff.
So since 2017 I have been to the same clinic. And right from the bat they did not treat me good.
Some was better than others, of course. But the majority of the time it was a mess.
I started to get more stress to even visit the clinic and with the pandemic it become both good and bad.
Good because I could have a video chat instead. Bad because they randomly wanted me there when I told I don’t want to.
I told them multiple times about the problems, and they said they listen and wanted to get better. But days later its was back on square one.
(also they did fucked up th video chat too, by not even add them…)
I also many times wanted to do a full checkup for depression. Something they refused to do more or less. They blamed my ASD for it.
In the end I got a paper to fill out. And then I had to wait weeks again before someone even looked at it….
I told them that anyone could count those point, don’t need a real psychologist for that.
In the end my curator did it. Turns out I was 1 point for the worse depression.
1 POINT!
What did they do? Nothing…
They did not even care I had depression. They did not even mention it in the journal….
Once I did talk with a psychologist she just said ” well you have depression elements of anxiety”. Wait what? I know I have real anxiety, but that had nothing to do with depression…
I kept asking, same answer. No bigger explanation. In the end, no help whatsoever.
I Also got a psychologist right before the pandemic that I met twice. Both times she was very late…
We came to understanding how we would do the treatment about my anxiety, but because of pandemic I was no longer allowed there.
So she wanted me to do these at home. Problem was, I needed pro help when stuff would happen, not my parents.
So she told that I was laying about what we said from the start so I stopped talked to her.
Another is an occupational therapist. Met her few times before vacation. Then two times after. Because she was quitting.
We started something good. Nothing more happen.
She said a new would come pretty fast because we already started. But days becomes weeks, weeks becomes months. It all ends with nothing. Because in the journal it says I need other help from the resident I living at. (I did not have it back then)
Before that occupational therapist I had another. Because I wanted to talk with someone about my ADHD. The Team I was in was all focus ASD.
So I got one. First time we talked about ADHD. Second time she littarly told be that I could read it on the web….. Like I have not done that before?
But then we came to agreement that I needed help to start stuff, routine etc.
So we kind of started. Problem was, she never helped me how I should start. I told her my problem. And she said “if you are thinking about waht you want to do, then you are motivated to do it”. Äääääh What?!
They said this person was the best at this clinic about ADHD…..
January last year is the last time I had someone weekly contact with this clinic.
Because I told, If you not getting better I will change clinic.
Also the psychologist could not been serious, that I had back then. Because she wanted me to use a motion sickness band for my nausea.
But she never gave me any good resources if it would help or not. She was more like “hmm I dont know”…. 😑
I never got any offer for a new call assistance. Nothing. I only called them because I needed a doctor for a new doctor's report.
IN the summer last year, the nurses at the place I live at wanted to help me get someone to talk to.
They reached out to this clinic. They said. Nope. She want to change so we not give her any help.
That moment I told them I wanted to change.
That was August 17 2023.
On February 1st 2024, the new clinic refuse to take me on, because ”I only had doctors contact”. And when I did reach out to this new clinic 2 weeks earlier and talked to one, I said Way.
The old clinic refused to help me. The new one dont want me.
So yea. Do you think I want to keep living when I get treated like this by the people that should help me?
I will never get help with all my problems. Never.
I need to find them myself….
Good thing I have my dog. Without him, I would not been writing this today.
All theses clinics are based in Norrköping, Sweden.