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I keep hear same things about recommendations.
That its a great way to grow your subscribers on Substack.
I keep hearing some grow with 28% because of it. Others 50%.
Where all these numbers comes from, is still a mystery for me. Because these numbers don’t add up !
But maybe they only look at people that have nice numbers already. That does see good things when it comes to Recommendations? But us smaller ones, does not?
Well I have recommended people for the past 6 months. And not a single one of them have done it back. 😢 And no I will not go around and ask people. I learned pretty early in my life that people find me annoying by just saying ”hello”….
So I have decided to remove all my recommendations.
Because I’m so tired to loan others money when they are never paying them back. 🤷♂️
(And yes, my recommendations have gained them subscribers.)
If I do read something nice I might mention one or two!
And recently Substack double down on more recommendation feature. And I don’t like it. They should have spent that energy and money on Markdown support instead… Not add more windows to check boxes when you subscribe to someone new.
❄️Drawing from Imagination
Drawing from imagination has been very hard for me. I get a very clean and nice picture in my head. But been unable to re-create it on a canvas.
I have very high standards on myself when doing this. If it doesn’t look the way it does in my head, Then I failed big time. And I’m worthless. I cant draw and so on.
I mean I had this painting idea in my head I wanted to try out at the Daily Activities. The thing is, it was the very first time I even mention it to them about it.
So we tested it on wood. In my head I failed big time. In the leaders head, I did not. Because she had an open mind of it all.
But I did learn something from it. I open new doors. New ideas! I just need to get away from that perfectionism I have with my ideas from my head.
Easier said than done!
Sure doing this with painting like that one I just mention might work. But when it comes to all my other art. Well… Its a very long road.
Why is this a big problem for me, you might ask? Well people with ADHD do have very high standards over themselves. We are the Jury, Judge & the Executioner.
So if we fail something, we lose.
This is something you can work with. But doing it alone? Well nah I don’t think so.
You need pro help. Something I do not have at the moment.
And I’m not sure when I get it, if I’m honest with you all. (Or if I even get it)
But I’m ready to try by myself.
And my first step is to try to not be hard on myself.
How can I do that?
Well I’m not sure. Haha!
I have tried to do more traditional work. To try to stay lose and let it just become what it becomes.
With traditional I can not do the cmd + z. I can tell myself to not use a eraser.
Or even better, just use ink. Cant erase that!
It’s very small steps.
So one day, I might get that idea in my head, try to sketch it out. And not be mad at myself for failing.
And I have started to do thumbnail sketches traditional, in my pink sketchbook. If I get an idea, I just sketch it out. It don’t have to be perfect.
And it don’t have to become a fully illustration either.
Just sketching for myself to explore.
❄️My Art Journey
The past few weeks have been difficult. And I’m starting to understand why. To much has happen! I having more headache, and also Panic attacks!
Been a while since I had those attacks.
Too much since December 13th 2023
🔴 Denied sickness benefit from the administrative court.
🔴 I had to find a Lawyer for the appeal.
🔴 Group training twice a week.
🔴 Daily Activities once a week.
🔴 Try to start gym training instead of group.
🔴 And also a video chat with the founder of ArtWod.
Because of all this, my creativity get hit. I even got a meltdown the other week. Not knowing what I should do. Feeling like my art go down to square one, like I lost all my knowledge.
All the sketches cant move on to the line art, because it will only turn out bad. And so on.
To be honest with you all, I’m starting to understand why my doctors always write that I might never be able to work in my life. I would never be able to handle a 8h work days.
Well now it all cooldown and my creativity might bloom once more. Have started to sketch more in my sketchbooks and I’m liking it a lot more. Even streaming have started to become more fun again.
Let’s hope for the best right?
❄️Draw Cute Chibi Animals
I got this book on my birthday this year. And I liking it a lot!
The steps are very easy to follow for anyone. Doesn’t matter if you are beginner or pro. Or even have dyslexia, it works!
Sure this books is for beginners. But this books have helped me relax more. Not knowing what to draw, I use this one.
Also it does open new doors to the chibi world.
You can take what you learn here, and try to draw other animals in other poses and more!
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I recommend the letters I like. I have no idea if it helps them or me. I just do it because someone might want to read what I recommend. I recommend books the same way. BTW, I hope you will find a way to take it easier on yourself. I doubt there has ever been an artist in the history of the world who is totally satisfied with their art. That doesn't mean we don't enjoy seeing it, right?
Sorry you've been having some difficult weeks. I hope those cute drawings help continue the relaxation for you. 🤞